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This strange....Not-OCD I have.
I have this strange condition...okay, I guess it's not really a condition, buit I have it.
It bears some similarities to OCD, but since I haven't been officialy diagnosed with OCD, I call it "Not-OCD" or "Psuedo-OCD". Basically, I have this strange thing about things being perfectly in order. I mean perfectly. I will spend valuable time readjusting one thing just so it can be perfect:
- I always put the volume of my TV at a multiple of 5. Never anything else. Ever.
- When breaking things in half, I always try to break as close to two equally large pieces as possible.
- When asked to put something on another thing, I will always make sure to place it as exactly as possible. This can lead me spending 10+ seconds very lightly readjusting it so that's it's utterly straight and perfect. Even when I'm, say, playing a video game and exactness doesn't matter (You should see me park in GTA. I spend more time perfectly lining up the car into the parking spot than I do actually parking).
- When eating, I always eat in very odd ways. For example, whenever I eat candy corn, I make sure to bite off the white top first. Then I bite off the orange middle. And then I bite off the yellow bottom. I always bite each section off exactly. Exactly. Also, when eating things that can be broken (such as cookies), I make sure to bite off pieces that are all exactly the same.
- When stacking things, I always place the largest at the bottom and the smallest at the top. I will gladly spend several minutes carefully stacking things. Even when it doesn't matter. When stacking something such as paper, I will carefully line all the sheets up.
- When organizing things, I always organize them into very distinct groups, even when it doesn't matter. Like in video game, where I will spend minutes at a time varefully stacking all of my items on my save file into clearly distinct groups ("Okay, swords go first, then spears, then healing items, then attacking items....")
- When carrying various things in my pockets, I always make sure to perfectly balance the weight of all the stuff in them. On that note, I almost always place money in my right pocket and electronic devices in my left one.
....There's a lot more of these. But these are main ones.
I have no idea why I do any of this. It's kind of odd how I'm such a sloppy and irreponsible person when I do these kinds of things...
Comments
Such behaviors are not the hallmark of OCD; I believe it's when not doing these things these ways causes you undue stress that interferes with your daily life.
"That sounds like normal OCD though.
"
People here have told me that self-diagnosis is A Bad Thing, so I never do it anymore.
Although I guess that's a more accurate way to put it, given that there can't be a blood test for it or anything.
^^I know a guy who became completely obsessed with medical conspiracies
and crap. He... isn't in good shape. Especially once he started
modifying his doses and taking stuff on and off.
^Also this.
I know my OCD causes me to feel the following:
-If I don't stack things with the heaviest/largest/darkest colour on the top to the lightest/smallest/brightest towards the bottom, I feel like the stuff will fly away and vanish into nothing (Yes it makes no sense. My brain still convinces me it will happen anyways)
-If my thoughts are interrupted, I have to do a stretch back with my leg, then do it with the other leg. Yes, even in the middle of traffic. Otherwise I feel wrong and stressed out until I do so
-If I see something out of the corner of one eye, I need to see it out of the corner of the other. Same with hearing certain sounds with one ear, touching things with a part on one side of my body, or tasting something with one side of my tongue. It's the one I have the most control over resisting, but when stressed, it just piles on the stress until I give in. Yes, this includes pain. Thankfully it didn't kick in back when my collarbone was broken - My brain was probably too occupied with the extreme pain to let my OCD take over. It has led to me hurting myself though if one side gets hurt
-I get stressed if not following a schedule (The more I'm used to it, the more stressed I am. I have ruined whole trips with this and have had full emotional breakdowns when my schedule is out of whack)
-I need to wash my hands else they are unclean. My brain thinks that if they are too hot or dry that they are unclean and will contaminate me, yet I could, for example, pick up something very dirty with my bare hands and my brain isn't freaking out (I still wash though)
Oh god, these two sound just like me.
I should really get a watch...
The only digital clock in my collection is the one I keep so I can quickly see the time when I'm bed. Otherwise I would never be able to get to sleep.