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Every day feels so similar to each other.
So today I finally started to keep working on my book
series. 1.5 pages later, I closed Open Office.
I just lost my motivation for working on this. Or really, anything in general.
I'm sort of just....there. I'm just going through the motions each day.
I'm getting my grades up but that's it. I'm not really doing anything
important.
My book just exemplifies this. I can't get any motivation to write and even if
I did, I'm stuck in Writer's Block right now so it's not like I could do much.
I'm probably thinking about the plot too much to focus on writing (I just did a
complete reboot because I wasn't happy with the way things were going.
Actually, I'm still not happy. I'm not sure what to do now at all. I can't
figure out a way to make it all meld together well), but it feels like a chore.
Everything really feels like a chore. It feels like a chore to go on
Doujinstyle and IJBM. It feels like a chore to play Minecraft or Nethack. It
feels like a chore to eat. About the only thing I really look forward to
anymore is jerking off.
Things have just been...."samey", I guess. I'm just bored. Every day
feels the same, like I haven't progressed at all. Get up. Go to school. Do
stuff in school. Go home. Go to library. Go back home. Browse internet. Do
homework. Browse internet some more. Go to sleep. Weekdays slip into weekends,
weekends slip into weekdays. And nothing changes. I don't feel older. I feel
the exact same.
I can't even look foward to the summer, because that's the same too. Get up. Be
too lazy to get out of bed. Finally get out of bed at noon. Do nothing. Browse
internet half-heartedly. Play some games. Grab a quick bite. Browse internet
half-heartedly. Play some more games. Go to bed when so tired can't stay up
anymore. Rinse and repeat for the next three months. That's not exactly the
most exciting thing to look forward to.
It's gotten so bad that I quite often just lay in my bed and do nothing.
Because I've already done everything. I don't want to do anything.
I need a girlfriend. Or a boyfriend.
My mom says that she wants us to go to California
to stay with my uncle/her brother for a few weeks. I hope that's a little more
interesting than this.
Sorry for the emo rant....
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