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i REALLY DON'T KNOW WHO i AM ANYMORE

Tnu1138Tnu1138
edited 2011-05-07 01:02:21 in General
I recently did some introspection and I really don't know who I am. It's just so unsettling I'm trying to avoid this thing that keeps lurking inside me this horrible horrible person I'm afraid of becoming closed-minded and bigoted. I'm afraid of becomign a monster.  I keep checking myself making sure that I havn't crossed the Horizon yet.  I've had this intense headache recently in trying to remember thigns in tryign to think of good stories. I've lost my creative edge and i've lost my reasonibg abilities.

Comments

  • ForzareForzare
    Till shade is gone, till water is gone, into the Shadow with teeth bared, screaming defiance with the last breath, to spit in Sightblinder’s eye on the last Day.
    Therapy?  Therapy is good for that kind of thing.
  • Tnu1138Tnu1138
    Working on that actually. Once we arrange an appointment for that special therapist mom found maybe thigns will resolve.
  • ForzareForzare
    Till shade is gone, till water is gone, into the Shadow with teeth bared, screaming defiance with the last breath, to spit in Sightblinder’s eye on the last Day.
    That's a good first step.

    Also, if you're afraid of becoming a monster/bigot/closed minded, you're probably not.
  • Tnu1138Tnu1138
    yeah but i'm startign to wonder if i'm becomign a reactionary with my libertarian outlook and general desire for full social and economic freedom. What am I doing?
  • ForzareForzare
    Till shade is gone, till water is gone, into the Shadow with teeth bared, screaming defiance with the last breath, to spit in Sightblinder’s eye on the last Day.
    Well, you can ask yourself if that is what you really believe, or if it's just a knee-jerk reaction to fear that the government is some evil, monolithic entity.
  • Tnu1138Tnu1138
    Meh government, church, corpeations same difference. I've been looking in to Anarcho-syndicalism lately. Really shows potential for society.
  • InsanityAddictInsanityAddict
    Diet NEET

    At worst, this makes you the politically ranty guy. Tends to be easily accepted in most social circles since you can just zone out the moment the buzzwords appear. And to be frank, that's probably the least of your problems regarding functioning socially, so tend to the basics first.

  • Tnu1138Tnu1138
    basics explain?
  • InsanityAddictInsanityAddict
    Diet NEET
    Social anxiety etcetera.
  • BeholderessBeholderess
    A familiar feeling.

    One thing this one can say is that if you are aware and afraid of the possibility of becoming a close-minded bigot, then this possibility is quite low.
  • RottweilerRottweiler
    Inside, too dark to read
    yeah but i'm startign to wonder if i'm becomign a reactionary

    You're not.
  • GelzoGelzo
    Pony Sleuth
    Honestly you shouldn't have to worry that much about having shitty political opinions unless you're involved in politics in some way.
  • Tnu1138Tnu1138
    thanks the reassurence actually means alot.
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