I never got to finish highschool.

CommandoDude · 2011-05-03 06:06:02

Because I got pseudo expelled right before the end of my last year. I defended myself from another student, yea it was with pepperspray, yea I shouldn't have had it, but did they care I was an irrationally paranoid kid who was afraid of getting beat up because he'd just been recently assaulted by his own father? No. To them I was just another instigator of school violence. Victim be damned.

Bastards wouldn't even let me come to get some autographs for my school year book. Treated like some potential school shooter.

Meanwhile my attacker was only suspended for a couple of days.

And now I feel like I'm stuck in limbo. Still waiting to go back and finish my last days so I can finally move on. But I can't. Because I was deprived of that. And now I'll have to live the rest of my life with that pain, all the good memories of my highschool life, totally marred by that black stain. I'll never be able to remember ANY of my childhood in a positive light, because everytime I think of anything bad, old wounds I try to bury will come back. No friends until middle school. Even then, it was hell just with the 3 I had fior those two years. And I went to highschool and I thought I could put all that behind me, but everything just goes to shit at the very end.

So now I'm lost. Wasting my time living in regret and misery without doing anything for myself because I can't bring myself out of my own apathy and despair.

Nova · 2011-05-03 06:19:49

Get a GED or something.

CommandoDude · 2011-05-03 07:26:24

I do have it. I finished school from home.

Nova · 2011-05-03 07:40:53

Get a job then.

Deboss · 2011-05-03 07:42:45

all the good memories of my highschool life

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TheMightyAnonym · 2011-05-03 10:56:04

I never got to fininish highschool.

> fininish

In any case, you're not somehow without options. Granted, it will be difficult, but not impossible to improve your life.

And I feel for you bro; I had some bizarre reputation during school as a scapegoat for stuff. There was one time a teacher told me that I couldn't be in the gym during non-class hours. When I asked why, they refused to tell me and said "you know why"... huh? To this day I don't know what it was about, but that teacher was told something by a student, and I haven't the foggiest what it was. (What could possibly have happened that would get me kicked out?)

Nyktos · 2011-05-03 11:31:16

I never went to Finnish high school either.

Deboss · 2011-05-03 13:08:33

I'm picturing him saying "finish" but being interrupted by an echo.

┻━┻ ︵ヽ(`Д´）╯︵ ┻━┻ · 2011-05-03 13:37:00

"I defended myself from another student, yea it was with pepperspray, yea I shouldn't have had it, but did they care I was an irrationally paranoid kid who was afraid of getting beat up because he'd just been recently assaulted by his own father? No. To them I was just another instigator of school violence. Victim be damned."

You mean it isn't supposed to go that way?

Vorpy · 2011-05-03 13:37:48

lolpredictableedmaniaresponse

Generally no, it doesn't work that way.

┻━┻ ︵ヽ(`Д´）╯︵ ┻━┻ · 2011-05-03 13:43:37

Well I suppose the attacker should have gotten the same punishment too.

The first rule to violence in school is to not get caught.

Vorpy · 2011-05-03 18:29:23

^ Or have sex with the administrative staff, or kill everybody that can apply a consequence to you, if we are going your avenue.

Bob · 2011-05-03 18:41:39

"or kill everybody, if we are going your avenue."

Old Saturn · 2011-05-03 19:39:42

"or have sex with the administrative staff, students, student teachers, interns, janitors..."

┻━┻ ︵ヽ(`Д´）╯︵ ┻━┻ · 2011-05-04 01:00:33

I don't believe someone who has sex with anyone for such a purpose is worth keeping alive, at least in my sort of ideal world.

As for killing everybody that can apply a consequence to you, well, that's rather troublesome and the more people you kill the higher chance you'll face more consequences from higher forces as a result(unless you somehow make some convenient set-up where everybody who could trespassed into your house and you live in Texas or something), unless you just kill the government somehow, but if you do that it'll turn into a place where you could get killed far more easily unless you just kill all of them too, which is even more troublesome, even assuming one can do that easily because they're a sociopath or something.

Killing everybody is even harder, I don't even know if the country with the most nukes can do that right now (assuming no one attacks them back.)

I don't see why the school's rules should give an exception to violence considering how often they enforce no fuckin' violence regardless of the reason.

Bob · 2011-05-04 01:03:37

~~I thought anyone who had sex (or masturbated, lusted after anyone or saw someone else naked) for any reason ever at any time or place wasn't worth keeping alive to you?~~

CommandoDude · 2011-05-04 01:21:33

Edmania. I don't think you understand here. I was ATTACKED. And then I defended myself. There's a self defense clause in our justice system. But that's not how it works in schools. Schools punish victims. It's sick and it's twisted but that's all I ever see. Some kid fights back against a bully and they get expelled or something. And the bully walks off with a slap on the wrist.

I shouldn't have even been suspended. Let alone expelled. That's fucking bullshit.

Vorpy · 2011-05-04 01:26:12

To quote my HSHB:

Pushing them away, putting up your guard or restraining them in some manner is self defense.

Using any manner that would cause damage to their body purposely (aka even using any form of martial arts to smack away their arms, or using an armbar on them) or physically striking them as a way to purposely (and most of the time accidentally) inflicting damage is not allowed.

Those were the guidelines in my Highschool's handbook anyway that I vaguely remember.

┻━┻ ︵ヽ(`Д´）╯︵ ┻━┻ · 2011-05-04 01:28:48

"I was ATTACKED. And then I defended myself. There's a self defense clause in our justice system. But that's not how it works in schools. Schools punish victims."

You're still someone who caused unnecessary(to them, anyway) violence. The only thing I see that's bad here as far as the school is concerned is that the attacker is let off easy.

Nova · 2011-05-04 01:41:00

Yup- I'm agreeing with Edmania here.

The level of force you are allowed to use is 'reasonable'. Anything more than, say, a punch to the jaw to get them to stagger before you run is not reasonable; you could have fled.

(This was hyperbole.)

CommandoDude · 2011-05-04 01:50:10

I was in a neck lock being CHOCKED.

God I fucking hate when people talk about how "Oh you can just run away"

And what if you're a fatass who can't outrun the highschool jock? Hell. I'm pretty damn lean, but I can't outrun most people because I'm way the fuck out of shape.

Or people who say "Tell a teacher"

Tell a teacher how? Yell across the fucking campus?

Here are some FACTS that need to be laid out.

-The victim cannot run away.
-The victim cannot ask a teacher.

What the fuck is someone suppose to do? Let themselves get beat up?

Even if you were such an asshole that you'd say "Yes" The human brain is WIRED into a fight or flight response. When flight inevitably fails, unless you're smart enough to realize that wasn't an option anyways, fight is the option the human mind will instinctively revert to.

And you know what? Often times,

-The victim cannot fight back.

Why? Because bullies target weak people who can't throw a punch.

Why else would I have pepper spray on me? Because I have no other way to defend myself.

Vorpy · 2011-05-04 01:53:28

All I can say now is don't give a fuck about the unfair punishments. You were being tormented by a bully and you decided to retaliate. Be glad that justice isn't fair but at least you got to do damage to him. It may feel that justice wasn't served but then again, when it comes to school sentencing, it never is. It's the girls fault for dressing like a whore and not the guy's fault for gang raping her. It's the nerd's fault for fighting back when a sly bully is mocking him. It's the weirdo kid's fault for creeping out the students instead of the other children's fault for harassing him.

If school isn't fair, then don't play by it's rules.

Tnu1138 · 2011-05-04 01:55:22

I never went to finishing school but you don't see me complaining.

Deboss · 2011-05-04 01:55:22

My advice would be lethal force. Jab the dude in the eye if you can. Or otherwise seriously injure the guy.

Tnu1138 · 2011-05-04 01:57:17

ah yes force the universal language. Also Vorpy that just screams Chaotic Neutral.

CommandoDude · 2011-05-04 02:07:38

Maybe that's why I like her so much.

I'm Chaotic Neutral.

Bob · 2011-05-04 02:47:52

How lovely.

Schitzo · 2011-05-04 04:28:09

I've been in ComandoDude's situation more than once in school. You can't just run away, when all exits are blocked and you're already bleeding profusely.

Nova · 2011-05-04 05:42:15

Did you know people can die when sprayed with pepper spray?

Nyarly · 2011-05-04 09:23:17

I agree with Edmania. And I was bullied often. Probably not as bad as that, but still enough that I would have done something very regrettable if I had a weapon that times.

CommandoDude · 2011-05-04 13:02:21

Did you know people can die when deprived of oxygen?

That's what happens when you choke. Your lungs are starved. If the brain doesn't receive oxygen regularly it can starve and irreparable damage can be done even if you survive.

Are you seriously saying that I should have let him continued to choke me and pray he didn't do it long enough to seriously injure me?

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