Should I get a new name?(And a formal apology)

Chagen

I fucked up on another forum. I got into yet another shitstorm. So I think maybe I should make a new account on there, or get a mod to change my name. I think it's better to get a new name than to try to redeem my old one. I could stay there as Chagen, and I probably can recerse the damage, but I hate it when I'm so ashamed of a name I can't even post with it. I need to change myself. It's my fault all these arguments and flame wars happen. I can't run away from that anymore, and I need to stop ignoring advice for the sole purpose of squeezing pity and anger out of people. Yet I do, because I don't change. I say I will, bu I don't. And I know I don't, but I do. I need to actually make a fucking concious effort to change. Otherwise, I'll never get better. I need to change, or all my time on the internet is gonna be me making people hate me. I'm sincerely sorry for wasting your time with my personal problems. They are real, but I need to fix this on my own. You must be so sick of hearing me. So I'll stop, because in the end, I'm the only who can fix my own problems. Not you. You have your own personal problems to deal with, ones more serious than mine. Of course, some people are going to say I'm attention whoring with this. I don't want to give off that impression. I guess I've dug myself too deep for my own good. So yeah. I'm sorry for ignoring everything you said. I'm sorry for being nothing but a worthless pain in the ass. I'm sorry for being so stupid, so thick-skulled, so fucking stupid. I guess I have to roll with the punches. I'm stuck on things to say next, to be honest. This probably seems so digustingly emo, so attention whore This will be the last emo rant for now. IJBM: I'll try to cut down on the drama, for real this time. I'll stop being so emo and pathetic. Doujinstyle:Yeah, I fucked up big time yesterday. I know. Sorry, this time for real. I don't know else to atone for this. .....that went really off topic. ....I'm taking this too seriously. I'm acting like I robbed a bank or killed somebody. -bows- (I've always had a thing for using the formal Japanese bow to show remorse) -Chagen/Ak-48

Vorpy

Getting a new name only helps when you actually change your behavior.

Believe us, we know.

Myrmidon

pats Chagen on the back

Good luck, dude.

BaronGrackle

If people on that forum find out you changed your name (which can generally be inferred by a person's writing style and preferences), they'll roll their eyes even more.
If you do plan to actually change your habits in that forum, then that's probably the best way to recover your rep. :-)

Chagen

Vorpy:Yeah. I guess this really is a giant attention whore.

Myr:Thanks.

Baron: I'm going to post this topic there as well. I'll see what they say.

Tnu1138

Chagen whatever it takes man. I too haveastrong desiretorejoinonthe fun and repent (though i'm starting to seehow stuck up things are getting)

TheMightyAnonym

They'll spot you like the black on a penguin.

Tnu1138

Penguins are black?

glennmagusharvey

COLORED PENGUINS
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Chagen

Look. I was gonna tell. And I'm not actually banned as far as I know.

Others have done it on the site. And this is like on TvTropes when Metalhead switched to Forzare.

BaronGrackle

I just realized that my second section said: "If you do plan to actually change your habits in that forum, then that's probably the best way to recover your rep. :-)"

If that seems to contradict what the first section said, it's because I meant to include: "No name change is necessary."

RedEyedAbyss

I tend to disapprove of name changes, because in the end, you're still the same person, and all a handle switch does is create an inconvenience in figuring out who that new name is for a while.

"I'm sincerely sorry for wasting your time with my personal problems. They are real, but I need to fix this on my own. You must be so sick of hearing me. So I'll stop, because in the end, I'm the only who can fix my own problems. Not you. You have your own personal problems to deal with, ones more serious than mine."

I'm glad you finally realized this.

inkblot

If you're low-key enough, nobody who cares will notice.

Noimporta

I've only seen this work once, but you're free to try.

All Nines

Hm. I was originally going to prepare a pithy statement for the other thread when I got home (since I don't have a hell of a lot else to do), but for the moment, I wish you good luck, man. Here's hoping you follow through this time.

Sammy

Some people can pull it off, Chagen, but I very much doubt that you have the discipline to mask your posting style. And anyone who cares (read: mods) can e-stalk you with ease.

Schitzo

Chagen, as I see it, here are the patterns of your posting style:

- your parents and how horrible they are
- your love of niche anime tropes, some of them Lolicon related.

try and keep the both of those low key in your next persona until later.

(i was able to identify Ice Queen as Insofar because of her love of Monster/ 20th Century Boys and Bill Hicks because of this.)

Tnu1138

You mind giving me some adviceonmy posting style?

Schitzo

Nothing that hasn't already been said before, Tnu. Your syntax and refusal to correct your grammar and spelling will make you identifiable outright. This statement is not meant to offend you, so please, try not to be.

Tnu1138

I'm not. I'll takewhatever I can get at this point I only wish to repent and go back to the community doyou thinkI will  ever be able todo that as Tnu ever again?

Chagen

I'm not going to get a new name. I posted this to the other forum.

Schitzo

^^Certainly. More to keep in mind.

- do not become walled up in despair. In the animal kingdom, refusal to adapt means death. Thankfully, we are not the animal kingdom, but things will go much better for you if you learn to accept change and change with it (and pretty soon, you too can gain the power to influence). (weird tangent, huh)

- Enjoy making new friends. Tv Tropes is one of the better and more accepting communities i've come across.

^ Good luck, Chagen. If you need a talking to, I'm (almost) always listening.

Tnu1138

but how doI explain to my old friends I feel uneasy about lying to Usht.

Sammy

"I'm not. I'll takewhatever I can get at this point I only wish to repent
and go back to the community doyou thinkI will  ever be able todo that
as Tnu ever again?"

No.

"Thankfully, we are not the animal kingdom"

Fuck you, I'm a primate!

"but how doI explain to my old friends I feel uneasy about lying to Usht."

I thought you were estranged from your old friends for some utterly vague reason?

Tnu1138

Then what's the point If I have to lie forever its meaningless.

Schitzo

Don't. if they don't accept honesty, too bad. Move on. (yes, i said it. It's the only advice I know, but it works. For me at least. Because I make it work)

Tnu1138

Make it work? How do you make it work? i've been trying to make itworkf or almost a decade.

Schitzo

You have to work within your means, basically.

Listen, everything I say is going to sound vague. All that has to be done in life can't be told in specifics.

Tnu1138

But I need specifics right now I need to go back and I need toe ventually be able to revealmyself is that such an impossiblething? Can I not prove my worth?

Schitzo

Reveal yourself. Better now than never, better an actual result than what if. It all depends on if you really want to. And I'm sure you do, or else you wouldn't keep wondering.

Tnu1138

I want to go backa nd repent I don'tcare what it takes Ijust want their forgiveness.