This weird mental rut I've been in lately

Bob

I don't even think rut is the best word, but whatever. I've just been feeling so off lately, like something crawled through my ear and started eating away at my brain. This is nothing new, but it feels as if it's gotten worse lately, as if it's consuming my entire identity making me into some sort of weird, empty-headed living mannequin type thing. I can't articulate what I'm thinking, I haven't done anything productive in a while, and it feels like every effort I make to fix the problem falls flat before it gets off of the ground. In short, I feel like a complete wreck. Bluh.

Gelzo

These recent threads aren't something I'm used to seeing from you.

Is it late where you are? Maybe you should sleep on this.

Bob

It's somewhat late, but not what I personally would consider late. At any rate, it's just been this way recently. I get in these moods at times, but not very often. They come and go like a rare limited edition car. They're not common at all, but not the kind of thing that happens once in a lifetime or anything. On that note, please excuse the terrible analogy. I know it'll fade after a while and I'll go back to my usual irreverent, barely understandable, even less tolerable self, but for the time being, I just have to deal with the fact that, even if only temporarily, my brain is turning against me again. Then I'll forget all about it, pretending I never get in these moods and that everything is fine and I'm the same upbeat, goofy, vulgar, carefree girl people see me as instead of whatever the hell I am now.

That post was way longer than I meant for it to be. No, there's no point in me typing that, but I felt it needed to be said. And that is exactly what I'm talking about. I've just been feeling so off lately.